OMG camp was more fun than i could ever imagine!!!!!!!!!!! This is bcos of 2 reasons:

1. although we were divided into groups, it was only for grp actv. So this basically meant that we could go ard with absolutely anyone we liked most of the time!!:D
2. Every activity was fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D

Fri

We had some icebreakers and a "treasure Hunt", which were really fun. i was lucky enough to be in the same grp as Peijing. But some games were quite torturous! Oh yea, i got kinda grouchy at night bcos i was sleepy.

Sat

In the morning, i went to the supreme court and another half went to Internal Security Dept. OMG the supreme court was super cool! the building was so beautiful and the courtrooms were so hi-tech, like a conference room. We had a little role-play and i was supposed to be the witness' "translator" and didn't know how to translate!:P end up i asked the "witness", who was LiuTing btw. And the best thing is that we can go in any time we want and choose a hearing, where we can just walk in. so cool!:) and right at the top of the building is this circular disc comprising 8th&9th floors. 9th floor is the court of appeal, the highest court in Singapore!:D And there is a window round the disc on the 8th floor overlooking Sg River and lots of buildings!:D really panaromic view.

But i was still hvg sore throat! it was uncomfortable for me!:( and had a nosebleed during lunch, luckily lasted v short. Oh yea, and a cough.

Aft lunch we had clay making, and one artist who is one of the alumni's mum came to teach us abt tile painting. Pity i din hv time to do!:( But they'll try to arrange for her to come down to teach us another time! OMG!! this is sooo exciting! and it was my enthusiasm that gave them this plan:)

Then we had movie appreciation, when one of the alumni who's a reporter talked to us abt it. so nice!:)

But bathing was a prob. toilet was crowded! i washed my hair in the sink with yichao. but i managed to bathe pretty fast aft tt. Dinner was a buffet! how genorous!:D all free. i had to force myself not to take the fried stuff:( But We had goody bags too!:D

We had a party at night!:D they played pop songs and we all sang and danced along which was freakin' fun!:) and also the oldies for the alumni. so fun! and i went crazy when they played SorrySorry! i was hyper and just jumped about like some lunatic:D And then we had a midnight movie, and we could sleep anytime we wanted as we were in our sleeping bags!:) but the night was really cold, as i slept near the air-con in MPR.

Sun

Basically concluding the camp, reflections and stuff, but was fun too! for the first time i wasn't longing to go home after a camp. Bonded w frens a lot during camp.

Slept for 3h when i got home. tired sia! at least they let us wake up at 7 and 8 respectively or we would've died.

Mon

Had cca, packing up for moving out. Was tiring. Tr said we were making gd progress so probably no need to come back during hols!:) But i'll really miss this campus:(

And i went to see the doc. and the medicine made me sleepy.

Today

Sian. I still felt like the Fish Out Of Water in sch cos i dun talk to my classmates. Maybe it's my fear that makes me unapproachable. Do i always look "Sad"? Seriously i'm trying to think happy thoughts but it doesn't work. Maybe i'll wait. I'm really nerdy looking in my sch uniform, to add on. i'm doing what i can. But if u give me a chance, i might show some "Hidden Potential", not to boast though. I know ppl might have opinions of me, and if i meet my "Clone" i might find her unapproachable too. Well, maybe not. Or it could just be bcos i'm scared of the world. But yea i did improve... and i hv frens who trust me, so...

Argh! i'm freaking busy these few days although its after exam. Bcos i've a camp later this evening at 7. I thought a lot of ppl would sign up since its sec2 alumni camp, and shockingly out of 400 ppl only 58 signed up. and i've been running around preparing for this and that. i'll be going off ard 6+ so i'm really gan chiong.
My insomnia problem did not become better over the weekend. was scared in the dark so i couldn't slp. and sch days keep staying up late, including packing last night. tried to take a nap just now, but got overexcited.
Another reason why i'm busy is bcos i came down w sore throat just b4 camp and rushed to the doc on wed aft sch bcos clinics close damn early and that makes it super inconvenient. i hope i'll be well when my medicine finishes, and am taking it to camp. But one bad thing is that i got a bad cough aft seeing doc and hv no medicine. but i'm quite used to hvg coughs, so i'm content to bear with it.
Got bk my papers on wed n ytd and some of them were disastrous. For example, i'm still stuck at a c5 for chn, my compo grade which is usually best dropped like a stone although i tried so hard. But gd thing did quite well for geog :)
Gah, so i'll wind up exhausted. camp ends on sun 12 pm. And i'm going for this camp despite trauma from other camps, bcos this looks more free and easy and is not really tough and for training, but rather a fun camp. I hope so. i sincerely hope we dun hv to do dancing or anything that will embarrass me to no end. but gd thing it starts in the evening bcos:

1. i have more time to pack
2. it won't start so early and eat up my day, as many camps i know are torture.
3. i can bathe b4 the camp, so i can use my conditioner, which is vital for my waist-long hair. surviving one night without it won't be too bad.
4. i can eat b4 the camp

but i bet we'll sleep late and wake up early, so forget abt getting enough slp. hopefully we'll slp in the MPR or somewhere w air con or we'll be baked, and in addition won't be cosy at all. and got air con means i might be able to slp reasonably well. bringing a pillow btw. and my frens r gg! :) hope can be in their grp or sth. but my worst enemy is probably gg too. if put in her grp, might request a change as she'll only spoil my camp. hvn't been on speaking terms for a long time.

had translation and financial literacy tdy. both surprised me by being fun. but the bad thing is i've hwk. but those going to camp (i think) hv to do less :D but i bet i'll be really worn out as i've cca on mon and thu which r supposed to be hols and will be long hrs, but waking up at 7 is much much better than 5.45, which is plain torture.

i think the camp shld be fun, but might get boring too. will go on outings, as well as watch movies:P

Haven't posted for long.. Now aft exam shld be blogging more :P really preoccupied with reading- Watership Down is a super awesome book, the only one that I actually started rereading once i finished. Haven't been online for quite a few days- no mood. No mood to draw either since that "hot guy" pic was not up to my standards, although my mum said it's nice. I feel quite sian after exam and haven't done much on what I planned to. I only care about reading. Oh shit i just missed half an hr of Project Hope on TV and dunno if got encore. And guess what? i'm turning into sth of a study freak. I kind of enjoy doing the assessment my mum made me do. Seriously! I think i'm siao alr.:] But anw, its gd not to resent work so much. But my lazy nature remains- i din tidy my table or sort out my files or do my tuition hwk or anyth like that.:}
Oh freak i still dun hv info on o level art. must find tr on wed or sth if she still dun reply my email.
Wow. Wow. Exams were barely over a week ago and I'm surprised time seems to pass quite fast? Yet one week seems like a year ago. Weird, isn't it? yet so fast, yet so slow!
I had long naps-3hr on fri and Sat. Was more tired than i thot. Napped on sun too, but forced myself not to tdy cos i'll have insomnia at night. Fri was some sports day and i suck at sports. Played floorball, and as we had more thn enough ppl, i was content to sit out during 2 out of 4 games. i wasn't the only one to do so. but in one game we missed winning and drew because of me, who was goalie and failed to hit the ball out of the goal.D; well, i tried, but am chi dun. is in my genes. But am glad the other match i played we won. but still i only hit the ball once, the other times hitting at the same time as someone else :x
On sat and sun i went to sc ctr and cycling respectively. That cycling trip left me with aching muscles and a bad pain in the butt- literally- the seat was too narrow and hurt my big fat butt butt and i'd not cycled in abt 2 mths. Oh well. my mum who had not cycled for years amazingly managed to maintain balance on the bike^^- sth she wasn't able to do for v long. well, i guess if u force yrself to do sth, you can. just like in Watership Down all those rabbits swam in the river. My parents say i hv to train up bcos when we go Taiwan there'll be much treking and some cycling too. i hope i'm up to it.:O But since we're not under some package tour but with my dad's colleagues, there shld be some leeway. Tho that trip to Kinabalu with them tired me out like anything:O
I went to watch Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs (3d) with my mum and bro just now.:D really nice. I'm really glad they didn't have a sad ending when one hero sacrifices himself for the ppl- like many movies i've seen lately. They left me feeling sad:( i hate sad endings cos they make u feel like sth is missing, despite the gains. and one word about those rated movies i watch online: They have NO ending, seriously. Yikes! Or could be the site cut off the endings? I want a good and solid ending -.- OMG i'm gonna go for My sister's Keeper when it opens soon and will try to get a nice big grp to go:D awesome book, movie should be awesome♥. But the ending was damn sad. But unlike the other movies, it was worse bcos it was a fatal accident and not someone sacrificing herself. (Oh yea, and i'm really glad Watership Down had a happy ending, and their leader died peacefully of old age after many yrs.)
Tmr is a holiday!♥ my mum is bringing me shopping for more Hot Pants :) I say they do give me a new look. And no need to wake up early so much. But i'm sad there are so few days of sch left bcos we're undergiong PRIME which i only started resenting recently bcos our campus is so nice and comfy and i wun be studying in the new one when we move bk as i graduate alr. anw with reconstruction those good old memories will be lost. But thkfully they're not reconstructing the whole thing. If i ever become a tr, i'll want to come back to my alma mata to teach my younger sisters :) or return after graduation to see how Art Club is progressing :D
Oh yea, i'll like to write a poem from some inspiration i had just now but it's late and gonna watch tv again. Might try tmr:) But I'm not a philosopher, unlike some stinking trs who like to preach us and it's all useless- i'm basically discovering more about myself and like to share:P

I got into a pretty bad mood on tues aftnn bcos i was too bored. Until at nearly ten at night when I drafted out this pic- which i'll mention later.
Went shopping w mum ytd:D no sch. Bot a pair of awesome hot pants♥ and a cute bagpack, which i'll take to Taiwan♥.
And I dedicated much of my aftnn to continuing that wk.^^
Watched Singapore Idol at night. All e contestants r so gd seriously its quite bad to send any of them home at all each time. Oh well, its a comp after all. They sang Michael Jackson songs♥ But i lamented that i didn't know half of the songs they were singing.:( Gurmit was so ~ toy with their feelings during results show, made 3 ppl sit on the Unsafe seats and then tell them they're safe~ Aiyo, makes ppl feel like whacking him :P
Tdy in sch we hd Day of Reflection. Reflect on frens and stuff. I realised many of yall r actually nice ppl whom actually ease my uneasiness when i come to sch everyday:D thou i may not be popular, tho i may not be close to yall, but yall do help me find strength, some way or another:) I'm glad that there are ppl in my class who can help me like tt. I only realised how impt yall r to me tdy.:D ty! and was so happy that Qiuzi and Peijing came down to hug me :D so sweet! but the priest's stories on dying ppl do freak me out :O
Now to my drawing. And yeah, ART ROX!!♥ Made me calm and happy:D On tues night I spent approx. 40min drawing out the rough shape, and shading tentative areas. I did this by using a photo of myself, and observing my own face shape, and areas of darkness and lightness. So that explains the girl having a slightly similar face shape to mine.
Ytd aftnn i spent a few hrs shading and toning the pic, to make it "pop" out of the paper. Thou i din find much on Youtube, but i did find a guy drawing bottles. Luickily, my mum has art books:D And i am relatively pleased with the results, for it's my first wk of the yr and the only decently shaded portrait i've done in my life. I'm v happy w it, so pardon me if u think i'm boasting.
Well, it's NOT perfect. Bcos i'm a beginner, and it turned a little ahma-like. And it's not exactly realistic.
So here it is. Hope u like it!:} i used only 2b pencil cos i lost my 8b and 6b. it's a little diff fr the original, it's not so brown and my hatching lines are not that obvious. Do comment!♥

And these are the reactions I got:

Mum: said it looks quite like me. Said was well-done.

Bro: when i asked him if it looks real, answered a straight NO. But then got really curious on how I did it.

Dad: Said it doesn't look realistic, but gd try.

YiChao: gasped when she saw it.

QiuZi: said it'll be nicer w specs.

So what do u say? i'll like to know:D O.O but i'm trying a new one- on a hot guy, but it doesn't seem to work out so well :( Oh and there's still no CCA:( which means we only hv one session this yr exclding hols:( but i dun wanna go bk during hols as far as possible, and i'm just so glad i'm not in a cca that requires ppl to go bk a lot cos like that its as tho those ppl dun hv hols.

Silence engulfed every inch of the classroom. It had been like this for the past two hours. I stared hard at the paper, trying to decide the right answer, then glanced at the clock. Tick. Tick. Tick. One more minute... to 10 a.m.

The signal I had been waiting desperately for came. "Stop writing," the invigilator said. The instant sound of pens clicking and being put down was then the only sound we heard.

His shoes clicked on the carpeted floor as he walked down my aisle, swiftly collecting our answer scripts. When he was done, we were to pass our question papers to the front.

It was clear the excitement was building up throughout the class as a few people started whispering to each other, like a huge bubble waiting to BURST!

"Alright, you may go now," the invigilator told us.

The class exploded. Immediately all of us jumped up from our seats and screamed in delight!!!!! A few stole to the door, urgent to make their way to the toilet. As a result, we didn't succeed in creating the "Kallang wave" we had agreed on as a class. Nevertheless, the sheer excitement and thrill was bubbling in the air.

No more tests, assignments or exams FOR THE WHOLE YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!! Who wouldn't be ecstatic?!

As I look back at all the ups and down of the year, all the difficulties, all the hard times, all the sweat, blood and tears, all the times I felt like giving up...

But it is all over. Whatever burdens I can now put behind me. The times of all that pain and suffering has boiled down to one thing: Today, 13 October 2009, at 10 a.m. sharp, all our sufferings died. Real life was born. Merdeka!

Our exams ended today! Today! Can you believe it? I can't, I so can't even imagine how it's like to be free. FREEDOM! What a curious thing. Too used to studying, eh? I can't let go. I can't accept this. I don't know what to do right now. How do I start being free?! I feel so damn weird and so damn happy at the same time. Have I drowned in the Sea of Blithe? Wow, IDK! I feel confused and dunno what to do with my free time! Yes, I've been planning for over a month, but it feels too weird to start!

I think you should think I'm crazy now. Yes, I am. IDK what to do!! Now I feel so damn happy I feel like flying.♥ You might call me a nerd. You might call me someone who only knows how to study. No, not true. Seriously, I don't like studying! I like art, I like games, I like music, I like movies, I like... Oh yeah, too many things to list. After exam, just as I did last year, I sought refuge at the cinema!:D I went with Liu Ting, since it's her Bday.♥ We so happened to meet Nicole there and we watched Fame together. OMG, I nv knew talents train so freaking hard just for some stupid performance. But yea, I guess it's worth it, as they enjoy themselves as the audience does too~ unlike how we hate studying!:P Well yea, quite stressful yea. And their paernts are so damn what~ hv opportunity to show their talent also don't let. And that part when one guy attempted suicide bcos the tr told him he would prob be unable to become famous as a ballet dancer- was freaking scary. I'm gonna hone my art skills this hols like they hone their dancing or singing or wdv. I'm turning to YouTube!:) I'll just go and learn how to perfect my still life and anything else fun. I've been dreaming to be able to draw sth 100% realistic for my entire life, and I've time now so I guess I shall try to.♥ I know many ppl are discouraging me from taking Art next year, but I feel it might seriously be worth ditching Trip Sc for.

Gonna watch more movies in coming days.♥ Both in the cinemas and online. Have started reading again- an invaluable joy that I can nv live without!♥ I'm reading Watership Down and can't take my eyes off it. But reading quite slow too cos lang is hard.:D

What I plan to do now is to go to Youtube and watch all those super duper HOT Super Junior and DBSK guys dancing to their songs.♥ Feel like flying.

EXAMS ARE OVER. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 CHEERS FOR END OF EXAMS: HIPHIP HOORAY! HIPHIP HOORAY! HIPHIP HOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (SCREAM)♥

although i'm in a happy mood right now i decided to bring sth up that is not so happy- bullies. i know some of u hv been bullies. to sort a case out, i guess u hv to hear both sides. and recently, i've been witnessing such incidents.
Bullies
Bullies.
What comes to your mind when you hear that word?
The stereotype
Big sized,
Fierce, possessive boys
Who demand you to hand over your money?
Who throw your things into the drain?
Who beat you up?

Well, i must say bullies are not all like that.
They come in every shape and size.
Girls or boys
They can be smaller sized than you,
Or even younger.
Yes, They may attack physically,
But some choose to challenge the mind instead.

You ask me how I know?
I've first-hand experiences.
As long I remember,
I've been pushed and kicked
And challenged
By other kids.
Even now.
It used to hurt
But as you grow older
You learn how to deal with it.

Bullies want something.
They have something they lack
Which they try to achieve through bullying.
Some bullies are troubled
And choose to vent their unhappiness
On others
The weak, especially.
They single out their target
Torment the person.
Make him or her look stupid
And take delight in the suffering.
They think they're happy
No they're not.
It's a kind of artificial happiness
That makes them want more
And more, and more..
And gets addictive.

They just find something
They don't like about the victim
It can be anything.
They can just simply say,
Oh, you talk slowly
You walk funny,
You are no good at sports.
And they use that as a weapon
Against that person
Hurting him or her
Whom had done them no wrong.

Or sometimes bullies just dislike something so much
About someone
Cannot stand it
And resort to bullying
Which acts as a source of amusement.
As I said before,
It gets addictive
And forms a vicious cycle
When the bullies are so obsessed with it
They might not even realise
They are bullying
And that it is detrimental.
And I must say that
If you want to work things out
You have to hear both sides of the story
Before taking the action
Which satisfies both parties.
Or in the case that bullies are just doing it for fun,
Dude, you just have to learn to deal
And live with it.
Like I do.

In my case
Bullies solely wanna make me look stupid
And rejoice when they succeed in doing so,
Especially when I get upset.
What to do?
I won't give them what they want
By pretending they're invisible.
By ignoring,
Not looking or speaking to them
They can't do much,
Can they?
They call out to me,
I don't listen,
I don't answer,
I don't do anything at all
And pretend they're not there.
How can they disturb me that way?
How can they make me look stupid?
No way!
Just keep them at bay.

Those who bully,
Just take a step back and
Put yourself in the victim's shoes.
You haven't heard their side of the story,
Have you?
How would you feel if you were them?
Think about it.
They might be asking,
"What do you want from me?"
They might feel injustice.
You are initiating it
You started it
And you decide whether to end it or not.
If it's out of control,
By all means
Go and seek help
Before you destroy your victim
And yourself too.
By stopping such an incident
Not only are you helping the victim
But the bully too
For he or she is a victim
Of their own mind.

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:DD I only hv 2 exam papers left! I'm slacking bcos i can't be bothered:P
In 4 days time I'll be totally free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i suddenly feel ecsatic XD
Lets talk about exams. I shall update on e papers. I've slept at 11pm abt every nite and was freaking tired. I had to force myself not to slp. Thkfully, i din fall asleep much.
Revising was harder thn i thot bcos i had so much more tt i hd 4gotten and was >< so i stayed up. And i hyperventilated every night bcos i was so scared 4 e nx days paper(s) and right now i'm hyperventilating bcos i'm listening to sorry sorry, and the guys are so HOT:)
Tues: Geog was ok, Thk goodness! i had severe stress the night b4, and hyperventilated countless times. but now I think i hv a higher chance of fulfiling my DREAM♥ Pure Geog smiles at me in the mist, but the road ahead is unclear, whether it leads to it or not..
English paper 1 (which we actually hd 1st) ok, i just crapped my way thru, i must say. yup i think i did fine, yea but my compo was dem drama, in which i wrote tt my friend and i nealy drowned~
Wed: Hist was HARD;x.. i apparently 4got my stuff and stared at e q like its some crazy person~ and SBQ was freaking hard;x i hd to rack my brains to crap out a reasonable ans~
Chn paper 1-gong han was screwed, got stuck halfway. shld hv done si han instd, considering e q was relatively easy, but was scared no time. i was left w 1/2 hr when i'd finished all! my bao zhang i think i really improved bcos i used all those yan yu tt my tuitin tr taught me and surprised myself!~
Thu: well, i must say i broke down b4 e math paper bcos i found i couldn't do the prev yr papers, and am a perfectionist regarding math. but it was ok, thou, except some q that i'm not too sure and just mian qiang write an ans. when i found qs too diff i'll skip and do fr e bk.
Tdy: Science. was ok, except some really weird qs 4 bio. lost 1/2m bcos i realised i'd put ovulation as 17 days instd of 14 way aft "pens down" which was freaking stupid. but it was my fastest component, only took 20 mins. i'm still in ♥ with my beloved physics:D thou i was left w 25 mins when i finished, insufficient time to chk.
Eng compre was hard, but summary was easier thn usual. our eng tr has left, and pray the other trs dun be too strict w marking.O.O i dun want to get the shitty results i got last yrO.O
i dun really give a damn abt lit, bcos i dun really intend to do it nx yr. but sometime i will hv to force myself to practice some psgs.. and chn i hv more confidence now since paper 1 is not really screwed and my paper 2 has improved. bb said he's marked paper 1, and i'm hopeful:)
exams were full of pumping, u finish one paper u go home to cheong e nx. its stressful and too fast paced. but yea, we've gotta live w it. due to my slp deprivation, i had a gd nap this aftnn.
i'll probably go 4 a movie once my elast paper is over!♥♥ and treat someone v special to her bday too:D
omg i just found lots of wonderful korean songs!♥ omg i shall download them i'm freaking happy:D ♥♥

明天我的大考就开始了。救命啊！我真的透不过气了。我已经尽了力。明天考地理。哎哟，我明年若考不进地理班我就不知所措了。反正我已尽了力，根据我现在做的练习来说，我进步了。和以前的程度相比，现在有进步啦。明天的考试就决定我的未来。反正我也进步了，我看若小心一点儿该可以的。就明天加油吧！我的中一妹妹真关心我，做了祝福卡给我，叫我加油！真可爱，若见到她们肯定要说一声谢谢，并也为她们祝福年底考试！
下几天都会考，我还不够时间读书啦！就靠自己的命运与力量啦。其他正在考的人，加油！希望你的考试每科都拿满A1。
大家加油吧！

:@ no one's tagging me! D; i don't want a dead blog, and its made worse by e fact i'm really busy now:(
i think i shld try to write in proper sentences, thou i use short form- i like shortcuts. singlish is a result of laziness and also to spd up when taking notes in class. oh well.. srsly, i do get a1s for english..
O.O i think i've been kinda pushed beyond my limits studying too much. u c, i started mugging and stressing a lot during sep hols while my peers only started this wk or last. i wonder how they study within such a short time, considering they hvn't touched some subj? well, i hvn't touched lit, and am only intending to coming wkend cos its on wk5. (oh yea, our lit tr was the only kind tr to give us childrens' day presents!:D said we're all deprived children~i agree!) well, i guess if by now yr not stressed there's sth wrong.
once i reach home the thought of doing wk is too oppressive, since ytd. i ended up reading "Diary of a wimpy kid" teehee:P which my mum bot 4 my bro. anw, it's more of a preteen, considering there are girls who wear makeup to sch and boys who need to shave? oh yea, and going shopping at night! got me ecstatic- havent been anywhere but sch for nearly a fortnight.
been mugging- esp in sch- during free periods! (when e whole class cn actually be almost as quiet as during a test) and on my way home too.
tdy we hd a farewell party 4 our dear eng tr. she's fr england, and she's gg bk. and she told me she's retiring!:( so sad.. she's e greatest tr ever! my eng shot up 3 grades this yr. she was really touched at our present- old chang kee snacks and a ty card!:) but i felt like crying thruout e whole thg- surprisingly no 1 did! (if i hd been her i surely would!)
i slept late e whole wk- yucks. slpg at 10pm is alr tiring enough! urgh, but no choice. shall sleep in tmr. and a few nites ago (cnt rmb when) i had this random and really terrifying dream abt vampires. e vamps included my frens and ppl i knew, and they were white and flew like those in van hesling. eek, later i actually transformed in2 1 and in e morn i 草木皆兵；杯弓蛇影 and kept checking that i had not grown fangs. thkfully i din dream of myself sucking blood-.-but that has inspired me to write some vamp story aft eoys, and pray it doesn't turn out crappy like a 70-pg ghost story i did last yr- i found it lame!
now i'm in a dilemma. one time i saw sec4s doing their O level art and i got so inspired i wish i could do it nx yr, considering my art is 4th in class, and its been my passion since idk when. but thn i cnt do trip sc! mayb i'll jus give up trip sc anw.. i've gotta ask my art tr.
i had exam pract, and my math is horrible. i find e papers so hard.. i hope i cn make it. maths has always been my best-.- can u believe i only just passed 2008 paper? but yea, i got 85 for e 2007 paper:? and i dun hv enough time to do so much pract.. chn was easier thn i thot, but so far i've gotten quite alot wrong :x but bb said ours would be even easier (oh yea, he gave us a short paper and yep, i shocked myself w my marks and hv more confid. in my marks now- and he said my marks r in e safe range 4 eoy!) my sc- i LOVE physics, am madly in love w it and hv absolutely no idea why my frens hate it. i think its my fav sc cos for now, its easiest, tx to all e hard wk in june! and i've srsly improved. my chem made a huge drop, but many thgs in e pract paper r not tested, so it shld be fine. bio- know my stuff can la, wun be too diff. but if i take double sc nx yr it'll be PHYSICS CHEM, not bio cos geog dun hv bio and i just love physics, and i can still do bio in JC even if i take phy. (hey during tt mock exam sm1 needed to go off and evry1 started to argue w tr tt they wanted to go off cos they were done or given up and we ended up 1st class to be released. but i was still chkg and evry1 started to discuss ans! urgh..anw i stayed till 530 bcos i waited 4 yichao to c e dentist.)
i'm obsessing abt results and am getting boastful. i know it so dun rmd me. and yea, i'm not really happy now, no pt trying to be +ve- its all faking. but in 11 days time i'll lose myself in the sea of blithe.