qiuzi, if u dun c e post, u cn scroll down. and do tag so i know ur here!:)
sry 4 e weird bkgrd- blogs problematic again. went away by itself e last time~
first wk of sch was e worst ever thou and was L-O-N-G & D-R-A-G-G-Y. 1st time i din blog 4 so long bcos i either hd no time or was so miserable i din feel like blogging. but i'm happy now bcos of tt visit and some things over e wkend!!:) but 先苦后甜 i tell e bad news 1st thn e gd, so tt yr day ends on a high note.
on fri i hd a bad backache when i woke up. sch ended on a wrong note- math eoy pract paper 1 given bk, FAILED- i nv got below 80% 4 my ppr b4!D: some more otehr ppl cn score WTF felt so upset i couldn't speak but somehow cheered up when met qiuzi, yichao and peijing aft sch
1st wk of sch STRESS so little time to study! all tt hwk and now i no longer read on e train but study omg it sux. e dark circles under my eyes hv darkened in 1 wk! stress side effect and i think i saw 2 white hairs! bb told us abt wad he does when stress during cme, and said when too stress go do sth u dun usually do. gd advice- when i too stress i can't do anyth but stare in2 space at a lossD;
gd thing i cn talk myself outta cutting myself or sucide- dun worry. i felt like tt aft math. but ya, i know e disastrous consequences, and also i'm too scared of pain to do anyth funny.
life is full of shit, and i know it only too well. but when life throws shit at u, u turn it in2 sth productive! when e gg gets tough, e tough gets gg.
but i'm happy aft tt visit and also some things! yichao gave me a website 4 songs and i downloaded 30 since last nite!:) music is a major stress reliever. and its a chn website and they call linkin park 林肯公园! so cute:P
went out ytd- fresh air i like sg quarry! but i ate sth too hot 4 dinner and burnt my tongue!:( was painful and couldn't taste w tt part but it's much better now:)
i'm getting better at managing time- i did WWII this morn and i din touch e bk when i visited e babies (surprise surprise!)
unfortunately my niece din come:.( bcos by religion my bro and i r not allowed to c e babies until 1 mth- idk why and my parents din let my touch my nephew- he's SOOOOO CUTE!!!!!! i loveee him!!:D all e tiny features of a new human being~ and i saw him change diapers! hehe he peed all over e place. and another relative brought her baby gal- 5 mth and i carried her! soooo cute i could hv done it 4eva:D and she can support herself more so its safer. just like when i carried my bro when he was born 9 yrs ago!:)
we hd buffet lunch- fd so irresistable i had 2 serving and nearly puked cos too full:O and 4 dinner so full hd to eat 2/3 serving!
shall upload pic on e babies presents another time! late liao~ and my bro and i hv our combined present!:D
tahaha i dressed up 4 e occasion and i looked like i was gg to e prom in a purple dress and lip gloss!:P my aunt lent me her mascara (actually gave)-vain old me hd wanted to try and my, did i make a mess!:P anw i dun think i shld use it cos need remover and evryth which i dun hv and it got washed off when i swam later~hehe how come yall not so vain ar? as a teen i like to expt w my looks:)
went swimming aft tt-fun and i did ahem ahem in e pool-keep quiet>:D) and aft tt mmy hair was so tangled it was impossible to comb!:P and all i could do was straighten it
citysquare is now open! now i hv a shopping ctr right at my doorstep- dun nid to travel anymore! and there's great restaurants like manhattan fish market and fd courts like kopitiam and a popular!:) things will be so convenient!
omg (random) a giant praying mantis got in2 my hse jus now!:O eeks heng ah my dad got it out
it's gd u see e happy side of me, i'm not like this all e time. i think these days i wun hv much time to blog tho due to exams. but now i shall stay happy. "+ve thinking leads to a healthy life"- hehe that cute commercial w e animals! Whee♥
can u answer this? joy told it in class. joke:
什么工作是最冷的？/什么工作是最痛的？/为什么小叮当怕暗？(idk if i got this correct)
give up? bb and mo lao shi did! :P this is one of e funniest things i ever heard! ans:
当兵（冰！）/歌手（割手！）/因为它伸手不见五指！
omg this made my class laugh like crazy! enjoy!:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIUZI!!♥
thanks 4 being such an awesome fren!:) ur so cute and oh yea do u realise tdy is a v special day? 20092009!:D LOL oh yea and joanne's bday is 090909!:) u 2 r so special
thx 4 being my fren and helping me realise tt i cn be a gd fren by trusting me!:) i hvn't hd many frens so yea, i din realise my potential!:D and u make things lively esp when we go 4 recess tgt and all tt! and u make me happy:D u rock!
we hd so much fun at yr hse on fri! it's seriously a gd break fr studying till my eyes explode:O and it's one of e rare times i enjoy being w my frens sooo much!! was actually impromptu bcos it was yichao's idea, and so 2 of us and peijing went to buy yr presents! it felt soo gd to c u so happy when u got yr presents!:) i'm happy 4 u when ur happy:D
Qiuzi's one of e most awesome frens i hv, she's really a blessing!:D

there were a few freak incidents tdy. when i was on e mrt i was studying (ahem2) and was looking at my notes. and i held my bk up so ppl dun c! thn this freak guy was looking in my direction and his girlf ask him wad and he whispered and laughed. ERR.. ppl studying, go and kaypo;x they look their prob..
second freak incident: my mum found a spider on a pillow!! eek.. thn it refused to get off. she was freakin out trying to get rid of it on e corridor, and it went in2 e pillowcase! eeks, we mustered e courage to pull e case and it came out! tried to sweep it off w newspaper but it stayed, thn i thoumped e pillow on e railing and it came OFF! ;D i save e day! but we were still unsure and freaked out while chkg for it, err..
omg i still hvnt finish bio:( althou i din go 4 e movie tdy. got distracted partly by e spider. we hd chn LC in sch and it was HARD but other ppl also din understd e qs, so.. and oh yea, jus now we hd a cheng yu quiz, and i knew quite some of e ans!:) so i dun hv to study so much 4 fri's test and cn concentrate on other stuff.. and help my team quite a lot some more! feel so happy when i actually contribute:D (bcos i hardly do so!;x) ooh, i could ans e q 4 my frens!:P sry, i tend to boast;(
omg v little time to study eh! (but others are lagging behind me in time thou so i'm still not too bad.) really tired tdy- i always fail to slp early!
days e boring and dry. nth much to write. perhaps listening to my fav songs would cheer me up- even e hit songs dun quite appeal to me.. i dun like to be down, but ok la, who knows, mayb e nx moment i high? oho! i'm happy now! listening to when you're gone, one of my 2 favs!:)
gd luck 4 exams again, every1!!:)

i feel high and idk why. a few moments ago i was normal. a few hrs ago i was low. perhaps blog hopping made me happy? idk..:) it's as if i'm drunk~
tdy wasn't a v gd day and i can't believe i'm blogging cos intended to slp. wasai, so busy ytd! parents took me out, came home dropped FLAT on the bed.. but studied in e car again (hey, does help!) thn at night slp at 1030.. eeyer! hd to wake up when in deep slp this morn! kns, so i wanna hv an early nite!
tehehe i still hvnt packed my eng file i was supposed to!! who cares anw. too engrossed studying bio~ finished transport in plants, now reproductive system>:P can u believe i actually drew (ahem ahem) for my notes!>:P but colours do help!
was demoralized by a few things tdy: homec 1st 3 components- 12/24!!! v amazing, huh? well, no one gives a damn, i guess! gah, only reason to pass is not to pull down ppr and have a big fat overall failure in ppr 1st time:( and chn zuo wen got b4;.( but nvm, i calculated for eoy can pass easily! worst come to worst: Paper 1: letter writing- 14/20(a2), compo- 42/70 (b4), Paper 2: 44/110=100/200=PASS!!!!!!!!!!!!:DD but obviously must aim higher~just tt i must get myself to! mugging so many subj no time, but, go step-by-step! SLOW BUT STEADY WINS THE RACE!!:P
my days r like this: aftnn- mug, try not to be distracted by the comp. night- RELAX!! not totally, but ok la. either listen to music or watch tv, but sometimes w my bk in front..
i think my mum is bringin me 4 movie tmr>:) sinful hor, but haiyo.. i think i shld study in sch and at nite.
in sch and at home its pump, pump, and more pump. like cpr~ sch- mock test, home, study!! this yr we're gettg a real exam taste~ but my motto is:先苦后甜 so we must work hard thn we can play hard end-of-yr and not hv to cry over results or subj comb but RIP>:) and PARTY!!!!!!!
YAYEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) jiayous, everyone!! woohooooooo^^!

eeyer!! studyin makes my head spin. wasai! just now hd to shut myself in e rm to study bio (cos my parents doing sth tt i cnt disturb) and nearly went bonkers forcin myself to cram e things in2 my head. some more study dem slow. but u know wad keeps me gg?>:P thinkin.. abt wad to do aft exam!! so many things.. :) oh yea, i'd like to join youtube (in add to puttg vids i cn post comments- esp to e songs i like cos i've been listening alot lately) cos no time now:O btw i'd like to post crazy vids!!>:P ytd (?) breakfast i played w fd- made crazy sandwich!>:) got plum jam, onion powder, cinnamon, butter, blueberry jam, some jap mix (seaweed n sesame seed?), mayb more >:D wahaha.. cinnamon abit xtra. plus, i poured kickapo onto my sandwich!>:P -extra- hehe, later all e kids see they copy and make a mess in their kitchen>:P
oh yea, another thing, short attn span>:) cnt tear away fr comp!! wa, i v naughty eh!! but i hv my priorities too!>< plus plus, get too stress= give yrself a break. yep. finally dragged myself to cinema to watch where got ghost ytd (dad nv bring me) bcos sth i hd was cancelled. hilarious!!:D but some parts dem scary. but some of e ghost parts so funny! grown men start screaming and crying like kids XD but i scared of dark leh! luckily at nite nv anyhow think and scare myself~ and i realised i got 2 types of "movie trauma"- transformers trauma= scared of gg in2 wrong cinema, and g.i. joe trauma- scared cinema got too many men.
just now my parents brought me to expo to shop 4 baby things (and our own things too!) and i studied in e car (again!) and my mum and i were looking at baby clothes and this salesgirl thought she lookin 4 my clothes ah!XD so funny. she say ," 没有ta (comp prob)的size eh" hehe~ and e clothes i got were sooooo cute lar!:D i'll upload some pics smtime!
i seem v relaxed, right? no. i dem stressed actually. i'm forcin myself to study w so little time! some more my parents takin me out tmr- no time liao lar!! sai, my bio less thn 1/2way cos morn do geog pract paper- need to spd up!! seriously idk if my concepts are up to std- if i'm gonna do pure geog nx yr!! my dream~ u know, evry1 stress lar, but later i write -ve u not happy, thn i also dem sian. so relax and chill~ listening to music now as i do past few nites- lovin it!! an attempt to make myself less 井底之蛙 at e same time enjoying myself!
dun wanna stop- how little self control i hv!! enjoyin myself:) i better get down to it or else!!D; or am i just stressing unnecessarily? nvm, just get thru can liao! anw, it's only 1 more mth, which passes faster thn i know it! hehe, later i too free durin hols. too used to studying. or is it over study? feels like~

yay. i finished geog! omg ytd was such a busy day. we were out nearly e whole day and when i was at home i slept. in e morn i studied in e car!! thn i felt nauseous. but later in e aftnn when we went swimming i 4got my bk and wasted alot of time cos at e pool sometimes i din feel like swimming. but nvm, at least i did 1/2 chp.
i went a little crazy bcos i was so afraid tt i'd not hv time to study and even started feeling guilty whne i wasn't studying. (expls studyin in car and not being able to slp)tdy i was better. ooh, now it's over:D i hope other subj not so hectic. wasai, fr now till oct gotta slog;x
final destination proved to be a diappointment. e effects online were lousy- so blur! couldn't even savour gory scenes (like when ppl were crushed to bits)- i'm quite a sadist. it was too short too- only over and hr! thn a lot of it is just investigation and planning how to save e ppl. moreover i din understd e show. at e end of e show i din understd alot of thgs. (i'm quite dense and nv fully understd a rated movie b4)eek i think i better dun watch anymore till aft exam (which seriously isn't tt long) btw we were too tired to watch movie ytd, so hope 2 watch tmr. eek better plan time properly or dun exp to enjoy life anymore, lest i dun do well cos nv study!

i'm quite happy tdy:) bcos i'm studying. but takes loads of discipline thou. i only made 1/2 of my note 4 pollution when i got sick of it and started on physics (pollution is a v long chp) it's so much easier studying phy now!:) i spent ages studying durin june hols- and it paid off!:D but i'm worried i cnt study enough by e end of hols!!
well, i dun hv enough discipline to tear myself away fr the comp>:P
oh yea, this is a pic of my name stamp!!:D sry it's abit lag.

this morning i followed mum shoppg 4 presents 4 my new niece:D (btw i'm visiting e babies on 20 sep!!:D) but she din agree on e dress i wanted to buy :x so we din buy anyth. thn we went to buy ingredients 4 my bro's bday cake tmr!!:) thn my mum is spending e whole aftnn to bake (and i usually dun help bcos i hv 2 study).

tmr is gg to be a fun day!!:D it's my bro's bday and we're going swimming!:D and at night my dad will (probably) bring me to watch where got ghost?:) (and isn't bringin bro- he cn only watch animated movies or he'll be scared outta his pants!>:P) not like he's a nuisance either until he watches~. i hope i dun get creeped out. must discuss w dad e movie timing.

i realised staying up late (which i did 4 e past 2 days) is not a gd idea. i get really scared when it's gg to be 12mn bcos a lot of ghost stories take place during tt time:S esp aft tt bloody mary thingy w qiuzi tt day:S and another thing is tt i just cnt sleep in no matter how i try (if i'm up at 9 it's considered rare!) and i'll end up taking naps thn at night i cnt slp and e pattern repeats, so.. i'm depriving myself of a nap this aftnn! i shall hv a gd rest tonight:)

woots^^ i'm so happy. movie 25 rocks!! now they even hv blood: the last vampire on it!! (which i hd been still searchg 4)-those of u who hv been dying to watch it- here's yr chance!! and tonight i'll prob watch final destination!! whee!!:D i feel so happy. despite the offensive ads on e site, as long as u ignore em and dun click, it's fine~

♥tdy was the last day of sch!! lit test was kinda hard, but cld manage. i hd summary -hard! but nvm. we hd fun messing in e sc lab jus now. some ppl mixed their own chemicals! one mixture turned half blue half red- so pretty!
recess i was forced to follow qiuzi ard (c wad was her forfeit later!) thn i met other ppl like yichao in e lib and we talked abt pprs (again!) and we talked abt ghost stories too:S even e prayer rm has a story! and lots abt e clock tower ~creepy!
we hd free period 4 last period!:D math tr not here! (btw, sm1 wrote a joke abt him on our whiteboard: why was mr lin (our tr) not allowed to board the plane? bcos he was carrying weapons of math instructions (mass destruction)!!):D wahaha! they always bully him. and we dun like mensuration (sounds wrong!) but he's really a gd tr. he bother's to look thru our workings. thou we dun get e mks in e test althou our ans right! but nvm, he's really hardworking. and i ended up doing math hwk. argh! mensuration drove me crazy! but now dun hv to do!:)
i collected my name stamp tdy!:D it's sooo cute. too bad idk how to load e pic so hv to wait 4 dad..
btw i vandalized my table (mostly in pencil) while doodling durin lessons. i ♥ my pics! i like drawing eyes (not anime kind, but real eyes) and there's this face (but when i tried to draw the face shape it looked wrong) and it's abit out of proportion, but i esp like e lips! i shaded them in e corners and places where i felt like and they look sweet^^ but showing ppl a face is weird!;x i wrote there: unblinking eye: i'm staring at u! 盯着你！看你多么seksi! (i rubbed seksi away- later u think i chikobu!) and i've this eye (which is more realistic thn e face) tt had a tear coming out (tt i just outlined)- it was half emo and half bcos i like to draw water dripping now. sometimes i wanna be an artist..
i made qiuzi compensate by making her wait for me so we could go home tgt! wahaha! and we stood in front of e mirror on e green lvl aft e water cooler and we said "bloody mary" 3x! bcos its not midnite and i said once and she twice! thn when she said e last time i screamed and she thot e ghost came out or sth! lol!:D later i bot macs and she hd to wait. but i waited for her alot too! we talked abt anime on e bus again. so fun!
bad thing was my drink leaked on e train! O.O it even leaked thru e plastic bag! a kind lady offered 2 giv me her whole pkt of tissue but i din think it'll help and put my drink w my burger n fries! when i got home i hd sprite fries and sprite burger! Wahaha! actually doesn't really taste bad. at least they weren't tt soggy~ mayb eat on e spot better. takeaway wast plastic bags! i dun like leh.. i'm alr not using straws. shld be more like taiwan! they recycle alot there~
lalala. so what if i hv 2 study hard during hols? it's hols! i cn still stay up late and wake up late! and wear my home clothes!:D i painted polka dots on my nails. i'll take a pic and upload when i can!♥♥
ppl who hv tt sc(?) comp tmr (if u r reading this) all e best!:D sry i cannot make it but i support u!

Tiffany: gd to hear u realised wad u said wasn't really nice. i was actually v hurt, u know. dun feel guilty ar. but i do think some things r not really reasonable, ya. btw are u gwee?
olivia: ty for advising. actually i seriously dunno why i'm so terrible at making frens.. nobody tells me why either.. my life is quite horrible at times, and i think many ppl hvn't experience things i went thru. and every1's kinda sux, so obviously all the complaints!
I hv a concern over ppl who are anonymous. pls dun state as anonymous bcos i'm afraid those ppl might hv some ulterior motive. i'm gettg v suspicious since idk who these ppl r, and wad yr up to. e person i thought "uncle" to be does not seem to be her. either if u want 2 comment u frankly state yr name, otherwise dun even tag. if this continues to happen, i will hv to take action for my own safety.
if u r my frens and "anonymous", seriously just be honest w me and dun be afraid to show yr face. i wun eat u up of sth~
i ♥ my ppr :D i improved by 5%! and shot to a1 for the first time!! must improve in chn though. i did a rough calculation and i can probably pass as long as i get at least a high b3 for paper 1 (which i usually get):D try to pass paper 2 as far as possible..but if borderline fail mayb can still make it..
must give it all for geog. my geog marks are now gd, and finally pulled my cumulative to a1:D but i hv to maintain them and perhaps even get higher to fulfil my dream. anw i know areas where i can score this time!:D all the more i must put in effort!
ppl who arenot satisfied unhappy w yr marks, dun b unhappy! there's still a chance to prove yrself! anw, if u cannot make it to e class u want, u've tried yr best and tt counts. (like even if i hv to do lit) and may not turn out so bad either. jiayous and all the best!:} btw i could tutor u for subj like phy, chem and math:D just ask me.
eoy got pushed bk a wk. sigh.. but more time to study. wad's more i dun hv to go sch on e last day cos i dun hv a paper:D and i shall be free and watch anime on youtube!!:P e hols surely quite boring~ but i going taiwan!♥
speaking of anime i spent the entire lunchtime listening to qiuzi abt it. got such a shock tt we hd talked abt an hr!! must go watch~
more movies r coming up so i cn take a break occasionally aft slogging!!:D it's a gd way to relax. though i dun feel like one tmr, partly G.I. Joe trauma (the guys!D;)
pe was quite fun tdy. i hv a strength in serving the volleyball~ but not always. if i hit really well the ball could literally fly. but i cn never take a ball~ the only way to help e team now is service! i still hv hope in sports~ and glad my frens dun scold me (unlike some v nasty experiences i hd b4, including one v vivid one last yr tt made my blood boil.)
tmr lit test. did some pract, but not tdy. just leave it to fate! i hack-care liao!
another gd thing is tt bb turns out to be not such a bad guy. he's quite nice, but does hv a temper ;x that's wad i hate abt him.
cca was fun. i made a complete mess of my bowl and it nearly collapsed;x cos i put too much water. luckily our tr is jus soooo cool and he just transformed it into a beautiful product:D i finished early and had lots of fun helping my frens clean up! and touch up too.:D but sad lar, no cca until oct 16 or so :( i hope my clay doesn't dry up cos we're making the 2nd part!

to all the ppl who are unhappy w my posts:
I'm sry tt my posts hv offended u. i dun write posts 2 offend any1, but only to express thoughts &feelings. i'm sry tt some things i wrote might hv been rude, and ty 4 helping me realise that. i realise tt i hv some trouble controlling wad i write here, &hv the tendency 2 get angry, so if r not happy w anything u hv to tell me, and oso expl why.
however, i think wad u said was too direct and harsh. e comments u write, i know u hv an intention 2 inform me, however, if not phrased correctly, cn be easily perceived as malicious & offensive, esp since u r angry. when ppl write things tt anger sm1, she'll write hurtful things bk and it becomes a vicious cycle. i would prefer tt nx time if u find anything offensive, u shld approach me personally& we cn talk it over. it's easier to get the msg across tt way. dun write it the tagboard, pls. i intended my tagboard 4 ppl to write interesting comments& opinions, but i think criticism is too personal and shld be talked over personally.
4 e anonymous thing, my blog is meant 4 frens to view and understd me better. i feel tt whoever comments shld jus giv yr name so tt i know who u r, esp since its creepy hvg sm1 udk writing on yr blog. unless u r intending to write malicious things and not lettg me know who u r (which i trust tt u wun), i feel tt u shld b comfortable proudly posting as yrself.
if u r still unhappy, thn i cnt do anyth cos this is my blog and i do wad i want to do here. anw, no1 is 100% correct as we all hv diff opinions. i do diasgree w some things u said, but we all hv a right to our own opinions (and i dun really like ppl to tell me wad is "right" cos i alr know it but i dun quite agree w e expl).
if u r afraid of complaints & emo posts, i sugg u visit my blog only aft eoy cos i'm quite a troubled person n i hv a nature of complaining. a blog is somewhere u express yrself and all yr woes and feeling to a certain extent. if i appear always happy no pt hvg a blog bcos tt's not e way i feel & i'm jus lying to myself n puttg on a front. if u feel tt i complain too much, smtimes ppl jus feel down and need to express. it actually relieves u.
i know tt u might hv diff opinions but if u hv anyth to say, look 4 me and tell me face2face.
i hope this has alleviated yr unhappiness n helped u to understd better.

i'm quite slack these days. jus dun feel like studying. lalala
tmr we're gettg bk our ppr. i think i improved this term:) hopefully.
i've a niece born ytd to my cousin! the int thing is tt both her parents r trs!:D btw i hd one nephew born abt a wk age.:D